How I Live with Schizophrenia – The Steps I took to Manage My Condition

I struggled a lot initially living with schizophrenia, because I wasn’t diagnosed right away. The first signs occurred when I was still in high school, and I know now that it’s hard to make a schizophrenia diagnosis in teenagers. Some of the early signs just seemed to my parents like normal teenage behaviors, even if they were problematic.

For example, I stopped hanging out with some of my old friends, but my parents just assumed I was making new friends. The truth was that I was getting more isolated. My attitude also shifted and I got really irritable, but again, to my parents this just seemed like normal teenage issues.

When I came home after my first year in college, having nearly failed all my classes and with my moods so much worse than before, my parents took me to see a doctor. They thought I might have depression. It took a few visits with specialists, but eventually I got a diagnosis of schizophrenia.

I had known something wasn’t right—I had just started having hallucinations and thought my roommate at school was spying on me, so I was delusional as well. I just didn’t know what it was. While no one wants to hear they have a psychotic disorder, it was also a relief. Finding out I had schizophrenia ultimately changed my life for the better.

My parents wanted to give me most of the responsibility for deciding what to do next, and after learning more about my condition I decided to go to a residential treatment facility. I committed to staying for two months but also agreed to stay longer if necessary. It was the best choice I could have made. In treatment, I learned more about schizophrenia and finally understood why I felt so different for the last couple of years.

I ended up staying in treatment for three months. It took some time to find a medication that kept the hallucinations and bad feelings at bay and didn’t cause terrible side effects. It also took this amount of time to really benefit from the intensive therapy that is now helping me live a normal, independent life.

Because I chose residential care I got to try different types of therapy and really dig into my symptoms and how to manage them. I worked with a behavioral therapist most of the time. She helped me learn to recognize my thought patterns that were unhealthy and change them. She also helped me make some very positive changes to how I behave and react to external factors.

I also got to go through some family therapy with my parents, so they could learn more about my condition. We all learned how to communicate better. In group sessions with other patients, I developed and practiced better relational and social skills, which was particularly helpful when I went back to school.

Residential treatment was a long process, but it truly gave me the foundation for being able to manage my condition for the rest of my life. One of the aspects of treatment I initially resisted was medication. I didn’t like how it made me feel, but the staff at the treatment center was patient with me and helped me try three different ones before I found the right drug.

Now I know how important medication is to managing schizophrenia. As hard as it sometimes is to keep taking my drugs every day, I know I have to stick with it or I can easily slip back into an episode. And when it feels like they aren’t working as well anymore or I get some new side effects, I talk to my doctor immediately to figure out what to do next. Sometimes, one drug may stop working and I know I’ll need to try another.

One of the most important things I learned about schizophrenia is that it isn’t ever going to go away. There is no cure, but instead of letting that fact overwhelm me, I just need to accept that I have a chronic illness. Like someone with high blood pressure or diabetes, I need to keep treatment going.

This means I check in with my therapist at least once a week. We talk about how things are going; I tell her about any struggles I have, and my successes too; and she helps me regroup and use the strategies I learned in treatment to manage stress and cope with bad feelings and moods. Even when I’m feeling good, I don’t skip these sessions. I know that it’s easy to slip back into an episode of symptoms, and therapy helps me maintain a handle on my illness.